Broken Wings Make Broken Hearts

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For the past few seasons I’ve received a couple of unusual panhandlers. On the face of it, they were Canadian, though I heard them speak neither French nor English. They just kind of sat silently, patiently on cold water, fixing me stares through expectant eyes.

What began as a flying visit soon became a daily occurrence. Those expectant eyes soon started forming words of their own, like : ‘We’re peckish, so feed the beak’. And so i would dutifully open the swan hatch and break little bits of the baker’s dozen, hand-nourishing them with all the love and affection that only a mother could muster. The male – i knew he was a male because of the longer neck and the tendency to forsake his own hunger for the increased dietary needs of his pregnant missus – he was something to admire. He was selfless yet would keep her in line with a peck to the nape when her avarice got the better of her. With balletic charm she would round him and then leap up and snatch, warily, at the tasty morsels pinched between my fingers. His was no desperate lunge. He would take from my hand with a kind of gentle insouciance. Soon they grew bold and I, in turn, grew so fond of them that as he would take from my hand, with the other I would pat the feathers on his perfectly little anserine head. This interaction with wildlife I thought would never end, so much so that when they had their brood of goslings I imagined they would make me honorary godfather.

But nothing living lasts. Tragedy comes to remind us of that.

Last Friday I came upon a scene so distressing I’m still mulling over it days later. I saw a Canada goose flailing in the water right where my pair used to line up at the window to Scott’s wildlife soup kitchen. She was waterlogged and struggling to stay afloat. Sensing her end, the white swans soon encircled her. Initially I perceived them as a merciless mob who gained in strength from the weakness of others. Later i was to be informed that they do this because they are angels of death, white in their feathery shroud to deliver the condemned from protracted pain and suffering. Nature appears cruel but only in the pursuit of kindness.

She was in a terrible state, this Canada goose. Immediately recognising her as the feminine short-neck of my long-standing pair, her terrible suffering behoved me to act. I ran down the river bank as the current was carrying her away. But when I got too near she would flail with her one good side and, listing like a holed ship, paddle with all her might away from me and back into the waiting swans that loitered ready to euthanise her. Her movements made no sense. Waterlogged, limbs broken, her dignity was a thing of yesterday. Heavy now her plumage was a scrambled mess, she went under. I thought she was gone until, through one final death defiance, she surfaced and paddled away. Her mangled wing could have been an outrigger. She had no idea the extent of her wounds. This fact saddened me more.

I called the swan rescue society. England has its faults, but lack of compassion for animals is not one of them. A woman wasted no time in coming out to assist. With her she carried a hook and a net. After what seemed an eternity of trying to capture the bird, i scooped up the poor thing. She was cold, drenched and her wing horribly broken at the clavicle. We agreed that this goose had probable flown into a lorry in the fading light of evening. I spoke of my long acquaintance with these pair of Canada geese. To the rescuer I relayed my fears that this poor animal’s devoted partner had also flown into the trailer of the lorry and was right now lying dead in a ditch. She agreed.

Carrying the injured goose to the woman’s car to be taken away to a vet and put to sleep, the goose did not struggle or protest. Instead a great calm came over her, almost as if she has resigned herself to her impending death. Swaddling her in warm covers, I placed her in the boot of the car. Her neck was limp and outstretched. With the bottomless love I have for all God’s creatures, I stroked the wet feathers on her head as those black eyes gazed up at me. In a way she was saying thanks. Tears began to fill me eyes. I did not know why I shed tears for this wild animal. I could not gauge the reason why i felt immeasurable pity and loss that what was only the day before one half of a beautiful pair who went everywhere together in all seasons, even winter with hoary frost on their backs. In that very moment I felt such love for a wild animal. I felt loss. I mourned her life partner. And I believe she too, in her own way, felt not only the pain of terrible injury but also the pain of loss. Canada geese don’t betray emotions on their faces, so I’ll never truly know if in those eyes lay the look of disorientation that engulfs us when we know our time has come, or whether these were the eyes of acceptance and quiet relief.

We leave this world not as we found it. Question is: do we find it again to leave it on different terms, this time knowing not to collide with that lorry? That in the life of an animal the tragedy of history is never repeated as farce?

Kings of the Tame Frontier

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A European kingfisher appears to be tobogganing down a boat’s mooring rope.

Kingfisher sliding down the mooring rope
Self-same kingfisher yawning? Yelling? Exercising that impressive beak of his?
He has a noble forbearance against the miserable elements.
He strikes a classic pose
A great, grey heron preens the parts that others bills cannot reach
Self-same heron sits menacingly on a branch, watching for glinting shapes under the water’s surface.

All photos the property of SM Shanley ©Trespasserine2020

The Resurrection Will Not Be Televised

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If I’ve said it once i’ll say it again: nature is back with a stealthy, healthy whimper. While Rome burns, Gaia fiddles a melodic tune. For literary effect, to assert that nature is back with a bang! as opposed to a mere whimper might hit harder, but it would defeat the point, for it is humanity that creates big noise. Nature is as nature does, and what it does while a quarter of the planet is housebound, while international trade experiences historic levels of supply chain disruption and slumped productivity, is to go about restoring a dynamic balance with quiet purpose. As house elves set about sprucing up the house during the dead of night when all slumber, watching spring assert itself while trade, commerce, and human bustle sleeps is a spectacle worthy of praise. Question remains: when we all wake up, how soon before the house is reduced to another ransacking?

Of course, I’m not the first to notice this wondrous upturn in our fortunes. People stop by the boat and remark how they’re beginning to notice things they hadn’t before on their daily stroll through the countryside. That obsolete word wildlife is even making a comeback. They notice the sky turning from wispy blue-white on a good day a deeper shade of aqua in the absence of belching fumes. They notice the stars return to cityscapes after a lengthy absence. They stop and notice birds do their courtship thing where before they just zoomed past. In short, more and more people are diverting their attentions away from servicing the machine of unenlightened human progress and toward natural events so revered by their forebears. What’s more, they like what they see.

The turning of the seasons becomes all the more apparent when the hatches are battened down. Human sensory organs realign themselves, from toning down the din of normal working life to tuning in to the rhythms of the living planet. Now i know that stuck in a megalopolis of high rises as far as the eye can see poses a challenge to the notion that pandemic lockdown has an unexpected upside that might even outrank the pandemic itself in vitality and importance. Half the world, nevertheless, still lives within range of what could be nominally called ‘the countryside’. Those multitudes are getting out (well they certainly ain’t wasting the opportunity where i am, which I take to be fairly typical) and some are pleasantly stunned into silence by the very act of silence. Have you heard the countryside now the internal combustion engine has been locked in the garage? Nature dislikes a vacuum, as ecologists like to emphasise, so in place of the universal background drone of cars from roads never further away that a mile (in the U.K., anyway), nature has come up with this novel scheme. It’s called keep producing the sounds of spring that never completely vanished, but rather were drowned out for generations by the vandalism of urban noise. So long, Range Rover Discovery, hello skylark or coal tit.

Few are disingenuous enough to really think that all supply chain distribution has stopped, that the tens of thousands of articulated lorries that deliver the length and breadth of the land have simply given up the game in the face of Covid-19. Most are painfully aware that the lorries are still doing the business so that fools like me can continue to enjoy Sicilian wine and Chilean avocados. Having said that, those delivery runs are sure as hell quiet at the moment. Never in all my years, have I heard the sound of total silence as i have blanketing the hills of West Wiltshire these recent weeks. It’s a thing to marvel at. To know that the world would go on without us. That the world doesn’t really need us, if only to process its complex interconnected workings in our complex interconnected human minds. I’m not even convinced that if we disappeared completely, or at the very least had our numbers severely curtailed, something else wouldn’t evolve soon enough with the ability to record and document phenomena in this world.

Lockdown will come to a close. Names of thousands of mainly elderly folks, ages with my beloved parents, by then will have filled death certificates. But in spite of the appearance of a population impatient to return to exactly how things were pre-pandemic, I think you’ll find that when the doors open again many (well, those in more favourable social and geographical positions) will privately bemoan the end of a peculiar phase in history when, instead of forging ahead on this unsustainable resource-greedy path we’re doomed on, we stopped a while and listened in to the heartbeat of the Earth. It was a very agreeable heartbeat and not one plagued with our hypertensions. More than anything, the resurrection of nature didn’t feel the need to announce its homecoming with much pomp or fanfare. It thrived all serene and dignified. While all this flourishing of life was happening behind the media wall of panic, some of us were alerted by a little voice in our primitive mind that said, ‘i feel good because the world seems to be repairing itself much quicker than anyone ever imagined.’

Of course, industry will once again crank up then overheat. Humans will continue to work against natural ecology – and ultimately their own long-term survival, proving even more of an aberration than any other species. Population in the cruelly-titled Developing World will explode like the algal blooms that human industrial pollution creates. Oceanic dead zones will reappear like necrosis on human skin. But all that planetary destruction will be okay because at least scientists cracked Coronavirus. Next year at this time, dissenting voices might whisper to other dissenting voices, ‘why can’t we have a pandemic every year?’

Declaring a pandemic month each year (without the concomitant death involved) could present hitherto unthought of opportunities. This could be our very own month of Ramadan, when so much comes to a halt during the day so that one may reflect on God (or nature, given that they are one in the same).

The resurrection will not be televised.