I am the Root of All Things

poetry, Solipsism, Uncategorized, verse

Before i knew of it, did it exist?
So now that i know of it, was there something i missed?
Isn’t it only a figment, a thought, a vision?
If it’s truly there, why have i no precognition?

Just because we call it a door, does that make it a door?
When suddenly it goes out of sight, is it a door to us no more?
Call it then timbers joined to keep the in from out,
Surely before i knew a tree from a tree, no curiosity it brought about.

Stood before the beauty o the tree i have little doubt you are real to me,
Until i close my eyes and see that you are no more than a memory.
An image inverted onto where the retina may conserve
A photograph fired along the optic nerve.

Where lies this photo library, the vast image bank?
Drifting in the soul or swimming in the think tank?
Do things exist because we wish them to be?
Is all knowledge a posteriori or a priori?

And clouds above what forms you take,
As journeys through my mind you make,
And waking hours make smug slaves of men,
Who see not reality fragmented and broken.

Does wakefulness inform our dreams?
Or is this life not quite what it seems?
Two mirrors positioned face-to-face,
And you in between the infinite space.

(©SMS2007)

 

 

Life In Three Parts – The Miracle, The Trials, The Triumph.

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Part I – The Miracle

 

earthrise

 

Imagine Earth fuelled by life-giving light,

Where whitecaps spit mile-high fury and spray,

Imagine up here day and down there night,

Imagine little lanterns luring prey.

 

Picture a small, blue planet of extremes,

From frigid wastelands to blinding sandstorms,

Picture smokers billowing from Earth’s seams,

Picture deep sea vents harbouring life forms.

 

Think of its chances of coming to pass,

By six day creation or primal stew,

Think of her birth as a fiery mass,

Think of what went into making you you.

 

Listen to bush birds ca-ca-ca-cackle,

Prick up your ears and tune into the night,

Listen to the creeping, lonesome jackal,

Listen to the owl swoop stealthy in flight.

 

Feel awed by the promise of spring teasin’

A sunlight smile from a tear in the cloud,

Feel gripped by the coming of each season,

Feel pity, for winter’s lost its white shroud.

 

Watch wild ones march to the beat of the sun,

Watch the drama before the delta dries,

Down to the Okavango one by one,

Watch the Kalahari during sunrise.

 

See a planet with a hot, molten heart,

A belly that rumbles, lungs that bellow,

See yourself playing just a minor part,

See New England turn a shade of yellow.

 

Tread lightly the Namib desert on your soles,

Know the heat of the dunes nothing can stand,

Touch a million billion hot, crystal coals,

Touch lightly the beetle darting ‘cross sand.

 

Golden eagles hunched in feathered overcoats,

A picture of misery in mountain rain,

On her tiny cub and giant panda dotes,

A picture of devotion filmed in fine grain.

 

Breathe in the morning at six thousand metres,

King of the mountains and all you survey,

Breathing suspended while a markhor teeters

On a rocky ledge not too far away.

 

Visualise the space between here and there,

Great rivers slow down as they approach the sea,

Visualise a planet laid totally bare,

From leafy sea dragons to Sturt’s desert pea.

 

Chart the mileage from the earth to the sun,

Right size and right distance, a blend so rare

Composed of five parts built one upon one:

Solid core, mantle, rock, water and air.

 

Unlock the mystery of evolution,

Tell me how a bird can know verb tenses?

How it masters human elocution?

Does our world consist of only five senses?

 

Part II – The Trials

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Look at the condor in Andean skies

With long, black fingers it points and it peers.

Look at that cloud overhead as it cries,

Nature watering the Earth with her tears.

 

Weep for wooden soldiers as axes fall,

Kingpins collapsing on one another,

Trees butchered to make way for more sprawl,

Weep for falling comrades, green-hearted brother.

 

Mourn the passing of the great rainforests,

Cathedrals of sanctuary wide and tall,

Mourn the disappearance of citron crests

And the tiger, the pointlessness of it all.

 

Recall the Moche of Northern Peru,

Repaid nature’s drops of kindness with blood,

Recalled in the bones of a scattered few,

Their mud bricks dissolved in flood after flood.

 

Lament the slow browning of Gondwana,

Catch the last beech leaf on a hot, dry gust,

Lament the fierce onslaught of lantana,

Hooves in the wrong place kicking up dust.

 

Hear snorting and snoring of the bulldoze,

Hear the groaning of trees as they splinter,

Logging firms work round the clock to keep those

Sticks piled high for a nuclear winter.

 

Rare and delightful, numbering two score,

Amur Leopards from the high catwalk stare

At extinction in a few winters more;

Big cats of Amur, delightful and rare.

 

Drink from the well of brackish water

Dodge all the flotsam in open sea

Notice the reclining sea otter

Consume the mercury in his tea.

 

The possibilities evaporate,

When earth’s green belt is tightened notch by notch,

The future we cannot anticipate,

Yet we can do more than sit back and watch.

 

Big eats little and the rot just spreads,

Food chain tainted, salt in the table,

Toxic rivers sport fish with three heads,

While purity exists as fable.

 

Despair of winter’s intolerant rule,

Holding court the whole damn semester,

Despair of winter, it makes spring a fool,

And summer it considers a jester.

 

For less than the cost of a night on the tiles,

To the seven hills of old Rome you can fly,

Speed off in an Alfa for miles and miles.

Is the price of all this freedom too high?

 

When you’ve caught the last fish, felled the last tree,

Damned the last watercourse, drained the last fen,

Drunk the last drop, ransacked the treasury,

What value will your currency have then?

Part III – The Triumph

tuareg-caravan

Watch the high Atacama desiccate,

Forsaken land, its parching sad and slow,

Watch the Christ-child make his appearance late,

Watch as dormant seeds in the desert grow.

 

Sense the growling of the shifting ice floes

The whooshing of brine lapping ‘gainst their walls,

Sense the white bear out there wrapped in the snows,

Sense that even this far north nature calls.

 

Fighting the deep south ninety-degrees night

Emperor Dads close rank in a corkscrew,

Fighting the elements, standing upright,

Long enough that his chick gets his fish stew.

 

Forgive us our frailties and our failing,

Even Genghis himself was scared of hounds,

Forgive us our sobs and bitter wailing,

Nothing lies still under burial mounds.

 

Hear mechanised mashing of wood pulp,

Hear bear claw grating on the tree bark,

Hear even the heartless man humbly gulp,

When he hears the sweet song of the skylark.

 

Brush those cobwebs from the corner,

Sterilise the four walls you call home,

But master weaver is no mourner,

The graveyard shift he labours alone.

 

Tuareg armadas sail the sands of Mali,

To the ends of the earth and old Timbuktu,

Meanwhile Bedouins in the Rub’ Al-Khali

Break the monotony as they pass through.

 

Here’s to Cortès, Pizarro, cassocked priest,

Centaurs, sacerdotes, on the trail of gold,

Here’s to white conquest and la noche triste,

Here’s to fortune favouring the bold.

 

Shiver at the thought of the way we were,

Frost fairs on the Thames in the age of Pope,

Shivering through a little ice age, there

Out of seven ill years came renewed hope.

 

Ephemeral wildflowers of the Outback

Bide a while until drops awaken them,

Tender forest shoots fight for the light they lack,

By catching photons with their hoisted stem.

 

You’ll build your great empire like others did,

First it was the trees, then the great lizards,

Then you’ll overreach and nature will rid

You of your numbers with drought and blizzards.

 

The ice will advance, the ice will retreat,

Into rivers of crystal it will flow,

Earth will be recast under many feet

Of liquid rock poured from fires below.

 

And Life will go on, new powers will rise,

And fall, expand and collapse like a lung,

Man will still squabble in tribes for the prize,

Which will lie out of reach in worlds far flung.

 

(©SMS2007)

 

 

 

 

 

Satisfying Encounters from an Underworld of Goodness.

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 If it wasn’t so alarming it would be comical. In the already emerged nations, warning bells on newsdesks everywhere chime with the moral mood of the beleaguered middle-classes. Western media outlets thrash out their tune off-key – from revelations involving a dragnet of massive wealth mismanagement in tiny Panama, to other anonymous offshore havens offering divine return for an extremely homicidal form of investment (read DAESH). The age of oil is ending and the age of roil well underway. Climate changes on two fronts, and I don’t mean the Al Nusra front, which is changing relatively little of Syria’s misfortunes.

As well as coral shoals being so offended by the state of tropical brine that entire ecosystems have been spitting out en masse the algae that gives them vividness and life and us a reason to spend heavily obtaining our PADIs, the climate of post war peace and prosperity is being blown out by a climate of fear, suspicion and sanctimony. Porn lovers of the world unite in condemning the moral turpitude that tax dodgers have fallen into, realising little that both camps get a kick out of stashing things in holes that nature told them they shouldn’t really be. The man next door, the one you never see or bother talking to anymore, wears a surgical gown of blamelessness while you die of terminal consumption. Yet he is the one with the IKEA boxes stashed behind the shed. Greed is a dirty word, oft mentioned with a contemptuous roll of the R these days, yet with everyone’s hands caked with contaminated soil no one knows what clean is anymore. The world is a basketcase, so let’s fill it while we can, down hypermarket aisles that are somehow magically restocked for unquestioning customers who haven’t the faintest idea how the global supply chain works. Never has a system operated so seamlessly as to make its eventual collapse feel both so catastrophic and inevitable, as if every single living soul is experiencing this mass Cassandra Complex that we see disaster in the offing yet no one is empowered to prevent it.

As for politics – the travelling tedium circus of the 21st century – never have the lion tamers put in such a lame performance. The big cats were declawed into indifference a long time ago, and the bullwhip held in complex derivatives that no one but the alchemists in pinstripe shirts and share options can fathom. Man, even The Simpsons saw it coming sixteen years ago in a episode where President Donald’s incumbency epitomises an America that has gone from Stonewall but democratic to completely off the wall and autocratic. King George W. might have been dangerous but he wasn’t mad and dangerous, which never stopped The Simpsons’ creators from pillorying him anyway as a feckless moron.

But the icing on the cake, or in the parlay of les Français, la cerise sur la gateaux, as if either icing or cherries is going to save our lazy, lardy arses, has to be the existential threat to the EU. Tell me, where did we go from simple resuscitation to declaring the body politic dead on arrival? All we had to do was shift a bit of weight, cut down the cholestoral and relieve high blood pressure. So where does amputation come into it? Risking life and limb so that we can either drift off into mid-Atlantic isolation or descend into cross-border bickering, eventuating in open conflict? Little Napoleons everywhere, you have been mobilised. Little Francos, Hitlers, and Mussolinis, too.

Therefore, in spite of this litany of woe, it comes as some surprise that there is still good in this world; that yes, you may absolutely ignore the cynical broadsides firing grapeshot and splintering wood into the poor iPhone where your heart used to be. There is, contrary to popular belief, hope for us all yet. Well, those of us not implicated in either the Panama papers or a paedophile ring, anyway.

 

Here’s why there is hope: despair, hopelessness and revulsion bask in the media limelight, but that light is trained only on a small, concentrated area. Little, cumulative acts of good occupy everywhere which is not the headline-grabbing limelight, in effect an immense area. Hands down, the digital mediascape likes its monuments big and ugly. But that is not the half of it. There’s beauty in the detail. Lifetimes worth of the stuff.

Not only are there infinitely more instances of virtue than vice prevalent on Earth every minute of every day, each act is more than a mere instance. Taken individually, acts of good matter. Taken together, they matter more. Still, the small, consequential things do not earn ratings or sales. It’s the paradox of good people doing malicious things or shady individuals seeing the light that makes the narrative a narrative worth hounding after. The media has gone into hyper-drive concocting a campaign of fear and paranoia, feeding our anguish and our loneliness. But it’s no more than stay-at-homers deserve.

Virtue exists as the least visible of visible acts. Never mind God as the big man, if it is to be found anywhere then the metaphysical must live in the smallest, indivisible quanta. Ubiquitous in the dark shadow, that cognizant force/energy that buzzes everywhere never misses a trick in spite of its diminutive size.

 

Case in point: a man listens to his conscience. It tells him,

You need to give something back for all the good fortune life throws your way.’

Prone to talking to himself, he replies,

That’s a fair kop, God of conscience.’

Knowing deep in himself while God (if anything) is pure energy and energy cares not for morality, there is nevertheless something akin to a cosmic ledger that requires balancing. Dutifully he succumbs to altruism, rises from his lazy arse, fills his bag with food and water, opens his gilded cage and prowls out into the night. Finding himself at the usual spot, that pile of rubble behind the local supermarket, the object(s) of his altruism is/are strangely absent tonight.

He waits, cupping an ear to the inevitable clarion of night which will guide his way to stilling the clamour of his conscience. Hearing it, he walks over to find a small stray puppy emerge from under the perimeter fencing of a nearby building site. Beside itself with joy, evinced in both the excited slinking of its not too emaciated body and its tendency of entangling moving legs by darting in and out with its jig of expectation, the man walks it back to the plastic dishes he has laid down. Two security men look on with mild interest. In the semi-darkness he does not know if theirs is a look of scorn, pity or admiration. Experienced by now in such matters, he adjudges indifference to be the mood that sets their countenance.

A minute later he sits contentedly looking on as the ten week-old stray, born in a pipe that is now built into the new complex of apartments across the road, wolfs back tender chunks of meat and laps clean, clear water. From nowhere a car approaches and slows to a stop. A window rolls down to reveal the glint of blackness on the face of the driver. Half-expecting to be met with the puzzlement of a white leper dying in a Calcutta colony, the man quickly loses interest in the car, in whose presence he feels a bearing down, but not necessarily a good one. Casting his eyes up again, the glint of streetlamp that catches the black visage catches more the white of a smile creeping across the driver’s face.

The man can see that the driver is most happy at the scene before him. Perhaps, though, it is surprise at seeing this act here in this place that provokes the driver’s interest more.

This is a very kind thing you are doing,’ he says to the man.

Bashful, the man smiles and shrugs.

‘What is your good name?’ he continues.

X’.

And where are you from?

From Britain.’

But where in Britain?

The man replies he is from Scotland originally.

Where exactly?

So the man tells him.

Edinburgh? I too was born there,’ says the black man whose accent is a amalgam of Africa, America and somewhere yet to be discovered.

Slightly startled by this, the man in turn poses the question.

What is your name?

The black man replies warmly, but the name is too indecipherable to make out in full, other than that he is a Dr. and the last two syllables are Y-Z.

Did your father study in Edinburgh?

The driver replies that his father was a South African diplomat, that the diplomatic life followed him into later life, as he now works for the US department of State, coming home this way but seldom on his long way back from his job in Abu Dhabi.

The man and the driver exchange dialogue for some minutes before the driver reiterates his reason for stopping in the first place.

I knew you couldn’t be local. They wouldn’t do this for a dog, least of all those on the street. This is a wonderful thing you do.

The man ponders a minute before answering.

We all need to give something back in life, even if it doesn’t amount to much.’

Nodding effusively, the South African son of a diplomat answers,

Oh, but it does. It means the world to that little dog. And to me.

May God be with you,’ he says as he drives off into the night. As the black driver appeared from nowhere, the man notices that he too has disappeared into nowhere.

The man looks around, seeing that the dog has gone, presumably to sleep off his dinner. On his way back to his hotel across a busy highway, the man wonders if traffic lights can feel and judge. He decides that if the lights turn red for traffic just as he is crossing then yes, they too would approve of virtue in the smallest of things.